Ego Takes A Beating

Maybe it's because I only got four hours of sleep, but still. I don't think so.
Practice Chem AP.
Totally failed.
I feel so awful not knowing how to do any of it! I'm not lying. I barely answered twenty questions, and I was just despairing, flipping through the pages.
How dangerously unprepared I am! So close to AP season. And for ALL of my APs.
I don't know whether to weep or cram.

Am only beating myself over it a little bit. It's still only a practice round. right?

Anyway. Yeah. *sigh*
At this point, I do wish my life was a book that I could skip these difficult weeks by flipping a few pages and write myself out of failing. I pick up reading where I've passed all my AP's and am waiting for graduation and stuff.

Heh.
Back to backlog of homework.

P.S. I've noticed that I've given up playing safe on my blog and am pretty much sketching my real-profile to the Internet. I don't know. I guess seeing so many strangers doing to same makes me feel safe. And besides. No one reads this but you guys. And even if the occasional lurker comes by (hi lurker!), it's, well, I'd like to think it's no biggie. I don't have a very interesting life.